Ya I know, more pictures of the kids. Deal with it!

This is Chase at the mall. This is Jarrett doing his science fair project. I had the wonderful idea to make him cut onions and make him cry. His project was to find out which of eight defenses actually work. So out of: having a fan blow on your face, a piece of bread in your mouth (shown below), freezing it, boiling it, wearing goggles, no protection at all, and running water over the onion. Which one do you think is the best defense? It's the running water! There is my cooking tip for the day.
For those of you not on my Christmas card list, here is the picture of the family that we sent this year. Of course I cropped out the messy floor before I sent them. This is Ricky, Mikey, Jarrett, Chase and Heather. This was the 28th picture taken...some of them had full moons and missing people but we all agreed on this one finally.
I have been asking the boys what they want for Christmas for weeks now and Chase has always told me he wants a little dump truck. Thats it, just a little dump truck. Well, Chase and my Dad go for walks around the block when Chase visits them. Chase is very friendly with all the neighbors and will even help them out when they ask. Well, one of the ladies bought him a Christmas gift, the dump truck and a small snowman. So very nice of her. He was so excited he wanted to go home right then to play with it. These are pictures from the next morning. Whats funny is Chase hates to get dirty and he got plenty dirty while playing with the dump truck.


Just a side note: Mikey is a kid that got kicked out of his house for fighting with his brother Timmy and so now he moved in with us. We have known him and his family for a long time, like eight years. Ricky and Mikey's brother Timmy made their first communion together and before that their mom Beth knew two of my brothers and didn't even know they were brothers. (She worked for my s-i-l's moms flower shop and she did girlscouts with my other brothers daughter.)
When I lost my job, the ex could not figure out where I went. He went to my friend Angies house and asked her if she had seen me. She told him no. Then the next day his buddy Danny and his son (also Danny) show up at my parents house looking for me. What a coincidence huh? They convinced Mom to call me so I talked to Little Danny for a few and took down his number and told him I would call him later. That was on the 6th and I did not call him. I just figured that he was going to tell Rick-the ex.
So on the 16th they show up at moms again. She calls me while they are there and I tell Little Danny that I would call them on Wednesday. So on Wednesday I go to Target and my car is not running right. I call Little Danny and see if they want to chat. He says ok and I proceed to wait around for freaking ever for them. Chase was getting ansy so we made our way home. They show up at Moms seven hours later and ask what happened. WTF.

Chase being goofy about the gingerbread man and lady that we made.
Tho outside of the house.
My wonderful palm tree all lighted up...I'm so proud of myself!
The tree and many many stockings. And yes, we have a star and an angel on top of the tree. Cause thats what Chase wanted.
The tissue paper wreath that we made this year cause I remember how pretty the one was that I made in 2nd grade.
This is my stocking that I made from scratch for the four of us like three years ago.
This is Chase petting a goat at the snow fest today.
Look it does snow in Florida. See!
Chase just threw a snowball!
He made it to the top!
A raindeer, elf, snowman, and Chase holding his new fish named "Little".
Chase riding in a horse drawn sleigh!

Today was the Snow-fest here in town. It always snows here the first Saturday of December! There are so many people that come that they have you park at the high school and they bus you over. You can make ornaments and sit with santa for a picture. They also have carnival rides and tons of fair food. This year Chase thought his time in the snow was a little too short.

On a side note they started this event when I was 12 years old and I have pictures of me in the snow too! Although it used to be a way smaller event.

Jarrett is camping this weekend with the scouts. Just a one nighter but thats good enough for them. They are panning for artifacts on the Peace River so that should keep them pretty busy.

Wow, where have I been...I don't really know to be honest.

I have decorated my house for Christmas. The tree is up and it has tinsel and ornaments on it. I even did a palm tree that is outside. Which I will take pictures of soon...

I decorated a hotel in Marco for Christmas.

I decorated two separate residences for Christmas. One of which was entirely santa clauses on the tree ranging from 6 feet tall to 3 inches tall, on the tree. Very santa clausy!

I got laid off.

I made a wreath out of tissue paper just like I did in 2nd grade and it looks fan-freaking-tastic if you ask me.

I painted some cute masks for Chase to play with, a kitten, an elf, and a puppy all with santa hats on.

Tonight I need to help Jarrett with a science fair project, and find the courage to tell the boys that I'm not working. Eek!

Wish me luck.

OMG that took me like 10 hours to do. I can't stand it that the pictures dont line up with the words and yet I tried everything to fix it. Maybe I will learn how to do it one of these days. And another thing... while I'm ranting...why oh why do the pictures come out in a backasswards order? That pissed me off too!

Ok I'm done complaining... try to follow allong with my post below...

(sarcastic grin)

See I told you I would do it. Oh ye of little faith...

This is my Mom and Dad's mailbox.


I snapped this picture so I could send it up to my aunt in NH just for fun.

















The next day it looked like this. So I had to snap another picture to send up to her. It kinda scared me cause I thought I was seeing things.













Next we have Chase at the Swamp Buggy Parade. The kids always get lots of candy and coolie cups at this event. Chase is holding up an airplane and wearing beads that he got. And of course the pumpkin is full of candy and advertisements.

The swamp buggy races were started right here where we live. at the end of the race weekend the winning driver and the Swamp Buggy Queen jump into the mud pit together. Always a good time!



Here is Chase with his birthday cake for his 4th birthday. I let him pick out the cake, can you tell? He is so proud of his pumpkin cake.














Here is my nephew Joey, a friend Michelle and Chase being pulled in a wagon for trick-or-treating. This was their second go round when Uncle Kevin took them.











This is really funny...for Chase that is. One day he pointed to this sun beam on the floor of the kitchen and called it a toothbrush. So here is the picture of the big toothbrush. Also one day I was getting out of the shower and Chase was on my bed and he called me over and showed me some dust flying through the sunbeams. I was amazed that he slowed down enough to notice it. A minute later he was jumping on the bed again being a boy.



This is what my yard sale looked like before everyone came and took stuff. Do you like my huge dinosaur?







After the yard sale Jarrett and my nephew Nick (not Nicholas) were having fun counting the money!!!















And finally this is Chase with his birthday present from his Dad that his Pappy dropped off. He was very happy to get a Thomas the train play set.














One thing I don't have pictures of is Rachel and the girls. They came down the day I was having the yard sale a visited a bit at the house. Then we got together again for a great seafood dinner and we didn't even have to change tables this time! I am so thankful that we had kept in touch over these long years.

This weekend we are having a hot dog sale fund raiser and a pancake breakfast for the scouts.
Oh and I talked to my friend DeeAnn and she misses me too. Her and her son left the troop just after summer camp and I have not gotten to talk to her.

Ok thats enough for now...

I keep saying to myself

"Man, I gotta put that on my blog!"

Don't ask me why I call myself a man, I just do it as a saying. I don't really think I am a man.

Anyway...I have stuff to say and I have pictures that I have wanted to post but darn it if I can find some time to do it.

I wanted to tell y'all Happy Ween. Cause that's how Chase says it.

And I wanted to tell you about my yard sale and about Rachel's visit.

And about other cool stuff too and I will do it all but just not right now. You will have to wait for a bit. Cause I need to get more that five minutes to do it. M'kay?

I will do it. You don't mind if its late do you?

Thanks

This warning sign is located in my car and every time we use the cupholder we laugh cause in order for you to hit your head on a can that is in there, you would have to bend completely over and touch your knees with your head. It's pretty low to say the least.

My sister in law Becca sent all the family members a little cloth square so we can decorate it and send it back to her. She is then going to put them all together and make a quilt to send to my brother Brad who is deployed. She said we could use fabric paint or thread. I chose thread. The little pictures represent the twelve months of the year. (really hoping I didn't have to explaine that part!) I know my mom did one with a nativity scene and my aunt did one with a moose, she lives in NH. I also sewed one for my grandma. Meaning she also got a square and I put some pictures of snowmen and raindeer and christmasy stuff and her name on it. Can't wait to see the finished project.
I know its a bit early...but check out the new sheriff in town. We finally found a pair of boots and so Chase's holloween costume is now complete! I was having him try on the vest that I made and he really thought he was a cowboy. Yes, that is a sheriffs star on the vest. It is metal and adorable!
He started posing up a storm once we got started. I took about ten pictures of him. He is so cute.
Oh, see the black picture next to him? That is a picture that we drew while Jarrett was at one of his scout meetings. It's a witch with a cat by her feet and she is holding a broom and a toothbrush. I guess she wants to take care of her teeth while she is flying through the night! Of course I drew the picture but it was Chase's idea of what to draw.

I got an e-mail from Rach saying that she is really coming down to see me. (well she told her brother she was coming down to see him, but thats ok I know the real truth, wink wink!) I can't wait to see her! It's been tooooo long.

Hope you all enjoy my pictures. Have a great day!

I am blank... I know I havn't written in a couple of days yet I can't think of one thing to write about. I have a picture to post but I didn't bring the cord with me. I could tell you that I have been playing Runescape alot more these days. Like in my spare time, and when the boys are not on the computer, which is not really that often. I would play while I'm at work but this computer won't even load up the log in page.
Right now it is 5:45pm and I am still at work waiting on a truck to make a delivery. I normally get off at 4. I talked to the office and they said that the truck should be here about 5. When I called my boss 15 minutes ago he asked if I could wait till 6. This is all very interesting, right?
Jarrett did go on a campout last weekend. It was a fishing campout. They stayed on Panther Key which is an island. The troop got some free pontoons rented to us so they could get out there. Jarrett found out that he likes fresh snook! He didn't catch it but one of the other boys did. They had it for dinner. He also said that one of the boys almost got bit by a shark. It was inches from his feet. It was a small one, I think he said a black shark.?! They also went hunting for treasure and found some really good Calusa Indian stuff. Shells used for tools and pottery. He really liked the campout even though it was very primitive and was only one night.

Well its now 6pm and no one showed. I'm going home!

This is a plant that started out as a twig that I thought was just stuck in the gutter at work. But We have been at this location for a year now and it seems that the "twig" was actually growing. I don't know how but it does.

A little like my life, huh? I mean some days I don't know how I pull through and come out the next day. I was just in a situation this past weekend that oh myI did not know where I was going to end up.

Last Thursday I was at work and as usual I end up hanging up on a certain decroted piece of crap that calls me every day. (Rick, for anyone that needs to know.) Finally at the end of the day I made the decision to put him to rest. I answered the phone again and told that piece of crap that I would not be taking any more of his calls and I will report him to the authorities the very next time he called. He informed me that he had some interesting information about me and a certain faulcification that he thinks I used on an application for some gov't help. I told him to screw off and hung up the phone.

Turns out that he thinks that I lied on the application about my address. What a jerk. 1. How did he see any information on my application? and 2. Well lets just say that two is that fact that he is a real piece...ok Heather calm down already.

Anyway, He (or someone that uses the same words and phrases he does) ends up calling the department of childrens and families on me saying that I am "not motivated enough to take care of the kids". among a few other useless and stupid statements.
So my Mom calls me on Friday and says that a very nice lady came by and she wants to talk to me. I finally meet up with her on Saturday (after I took Chase to the zoo of course). She talked with the boys and checked the house for food and beds and that sor of stuff. When she left she said she did not see any type of abuse at all and she will be in touch with my other contacts I gave her.

Ricky sent Rick (his Dad) a message that stated he was a stupid stupid man and that if any abuse was done it was by him. I told Ricky not to waste his time on him. Rick's step-dad Pappy called me and said that rick does not know what Ricky is talking about and wants to get together to talk. I told him no.

So, even though it was very time consuming, its good to know I came though with flying colors. I am a good mom and my kids don't think I abuse them...

YAY

Here are some of the key words that people have used, and found my blog with... and my comment on them.

camp bob hardin...This one is mentioned alot, thats where the boys went to summer camp.

writhing pain...must have been one of the few times I was sick.

gumby scout,...Huh, this is weird, I mean who wants a gumby scout? Whatever!

wood badge ticket...Oh someone needs wood bagde ticket ideas and they thought they could get it from me, ha!

long time no talk letters myspace... someone is lonley.

personals that don't suck... Still have not found that.

funny wood badge critter jokes... There are some great ones out there but not on my blog.

how to straighten a walking stick...This must be about my dads walking sticks, glad I could help.

that's a neck...An old saying that the boys thought was cool. So last year though. Now it's "That's what she said"

my boss has cut my hours need help to see what to do...So do I, my dear, so do I.

wood badge walking sticks...Yes my dad made me one with my eagle critter on it.

yahoo personals suck...I know!

we wear rhe same size shoe...How do you know what size shoe I wear?

beaver cheers woodbadge... Those crazy beavers can't cheer, they're teeth get in the way.

what have you been doing for the past 45 years...Uh I'm only 34.

does baby water moccasins come in multiples...you mean can they have twins? Sure I guess.


Well that was fun.

Saturday was kinda buzy. Jarrett, Chase and I

went up to Ft. Myers to the scout shop because he needed new scout pants for an event later that night. On the way back we stopped at Best Buy and Bass Pro Shops. We caught some cute pictures of Chase wrangling an alligator. It would be an odd day if we didn't see real alligators everyday in the various canals and lakes we have down here. Also at Bass Pro they have the crosswalk that goes to the parking lot made out of fish instead of lines. Yes Chase is a daredevil sitting in the middle of the road. It was for just a second and I'm sure that hue truck did not run over him on purpose. just kidding...
Next we have just a couple of pics from the Scout event that Jarrett went to. It was the travelling Vietnam Vetern Was memorial wall. I had not seen it before and I must say it is a very moving thing to see. Our boy scout troop did the candle light ceromony part with some girl scouts. I havn't figured out how to take pics at night so the one of the whole wall did not come out but I did get this one and ...
I found my moms cousin Anthony P. Palumbo who died in 1969 when he was 20 years old after he had been in Vietnam for over a year. You can see his name in the middle. During the ceremony we learned there are 58,000 names on the wall and they are listed in the order that they past away. I seen men sobbing and there were teddy bears and flowers and pictures left as small memorials. If you ever get a chance to see it, I would recomend it highly.
I know that I am sending a letter to my brother tomorrow for sure. He's given so much for me, and I don't think my one letter is enough, but I also know that he appreciates hearing from his sis. He has been in Afghanistan since January, but I think I may have mentioned that before.
Hope ya'll had a great weekend.
P.S. I had an interview for a part time job but I didn't get the position. I am still looking and not loosing hope...

Sorry that I have to be the one to tell you all this. But Chase is the "winner" of the priceless poster you see him proudly standing next to.

See about two months ago I took Chase to our local drive-thru Checkers. He got a kids meal and I probably got some fries smothered in cheese and bacon and ranch and a banana shake cause I don't care about my health at all.

Anyway to get back to the priceless poster that he "won"... On his kids meal bag was an entry form. For a trip to "Space Camp". This has been a dream of his for like five minutes so when we got home I filled out the entry form and actually mailed it in the next day.

Then we moved.

And I thought his Space Camp dreams would be crushed forever.

But alas, We received an envelope in the mail at the new house from Rally's/Checker's. Could it be the ticket to Space Camp? I called all the boys into the kitchen and we all waited as Chase tried to figure out how to open an envelope (He's only three people, com'on)

We waited and gave directions without helping him. He finally got the contraption open and... and... Yay, Chase is a winner of a poster.
A priceless poster at that.

A poster of a robot that, if he had gotten to go to Space Camp he could have met in person and had him bring him a coke or something. But Chase is a winner and I made sure to make a really big deal out of it and we hung it in his room and everyone that has come over to the house has gotten a grand tour of the priceless poster.

Yes, Chase is a winner.

He loves his poster and he knows it means a lot to me that he's a winner. So much so that one day this past weekend, he got mad at me for not letting him have a popsicle right before lunch (homemade this time) that he tore his poster off the wall and brought it to me and said "I'm not a winner".

I gave him the popsicle and we hung his poster back up in his room.

I found this in my local newspaper... It's about where I live and its kinda funny I guess. To help you out I will bold the funny parts as I know them...

NAPLES — Money Magazine has ranked Collier County fourth on its "Best Places for a Long Life" list.
The magazine studied regions across the country. The highest rankings identify areas where residents have some of the highest life expectancies.
In its report, Money stated that Collier County "is the picture of Florida leisure. By land area, Collier is the largest county in the state and 80 percent of it is devoted to parks and nature preserves. Any kind of water-related recreation or exercise you can think of is readily available."
The magazine also recognized the area's many arts and entertainment offerings.
"Our ranking among the 'Best Places' confirms what we are working to develop in Southwest Florida, which is a robust business climate for growing technology, life science and corporate headquarter enterprises. Couple this with a warm, natural climate and a well-educated workforce and you have the formula for business success,” said Julie A. Schmelzle, chairman of the Economic Development Council of Collier County, in a news release.
The complete list of "Best Places for a Long Life" appears on CNNMoney.com
At the top of the list is Montgomery County in Maryland, which includes the towns of Aspen Hill, Bethesda, Calverton, Colesville, Fairland, Gaithersburg, Germantown, Montgomery Village, North Bethesda, Olney, Potomac, Rockville, Silver Spring and White Oak.

I find this to be really funny. The part about highest life expectancy is a hoot! And you know that they really did their research well too cause every one that commented on the article said that Naples is great for bingo, bridge, driving slow, bingo, church groups...etc...
Ok maybe this is a joke only I can understand. Cause I do live here. And consider myself a native even though I have only lived here for 29 of my 34 years.

We don't call them "blue haired ladies" cause they are punk.

The boys

Jarrett

Jarrett

Jarrett and Ricky

Ricky

A few pics for you to muse over...

Chase going up

Chase coming down

One of Chase's Lizard Kings

Chase fishing in pond behind the house.

Ricky says "Top o the morn'in to ya."

Couple of things going on. Today is my son Ricky's 15th birthday.

Happy berfday sweetheart. You mean the world to me. You are growing in so many ways right before my eyes. You amaze me every day we are together. I luf you honey.

I got the pictures back that I told you about earlier. You know the 18 rolls of film that had not been developed yet. Well, I was right there were four rolls from the early 90's when I was in high school. They came back very grainy but you could make out some of the faces. Most were from a track meet. Another roll was from the beach down by the pier. Yet another roll was from when I went to visit my friend Rachel in Atlanta. Although there are no pictures of us, there are a couple of cute ones of my two boys at the Atlanta zoo. A few rolls were from when Ricky was 5 and first starting school (ten years ago). A couple more rolls were from 3 to 4 years ago when I took the boys camping at the Peace river and Chase's first bath.
Ricky needs to put the pics on his computer and then I should be able to post a couple of them.
We have been trying to figure out a way to get Jarrett's computer to have internet. I think we finally got it figured out and I need to go get the router today. But when I woke up this morning I was feeling really hot. Like sweating and stuff. I took my temp but it was 96.1. Then as Ricky was going to catch the bus, I started vomiting the water that I drank to cool myself down. I have felt lousy ever since. Hopefully I will feel better. Maybe later I will jump in the shower. Yeah a shower sounds good.

On Thursday my boss came up to me and asked if I wanted to go to Miami tomorrow...(which was Friday of course). I said sure and got all the info I needed and loaded my car with a piece of glass. Friday morning I left the house after the boys both caught their buses. Chase and I had packed a lunch and drinks and headed out the door.
We took 41 instead of I-75 cause my car does not do too well over 60mph. I love going the scenic route. You see all the gators on the side of the road and this time I saw lots of wild rabbits. They were brown and cute.
We got to where we were supposed to be about 11 and had to wait about 2 hours before we could head home. We found a McDonalds close by and played on the playground a good part of the time.
Then it was time to head back and Chase fell asleep before we hit 41 again. For those that don't know 41 is about 90 miles long and pretty straight and it goes right through the everglades. There are Indian Villages and swamp buggy/air boat tours the whole way through. And you have to watch out for the Miccassukee Indian Police cause they will lock you up in little huts and never let you out...Well maybe thats just what my brothers always told me so I won't speed though that part.
I mowed the lawn today. Ricky and I split it up and we got the whole thing done in one day instead of two. Yeah!
Lately, I have been going out and laying on a hammock that my brother left here. Around 6pm when the sun is past the trees and its a little cooler out is the perfect time to do it. I almost fell asleep out there today. It is so relaxing out there. There are lots of lizards that keep me entertained and any of them that are one the hammock Chase has decided that they are the "Lizard King" because they are so high on the post.
Rick saw Chase today and he thinks we are staying at my moms house. I'm not going to tell him any different. He was supposed to give me some money but we all know how that goes, the guy was not home all day that he was getting paid from. What ever.
Well the boys want to check their myspace so I better git...
oh that reminds me...when Chase wants to use the computer now, he asks to "go on my space". And we say "myspace" and he says "no, my space!" It's really cute, but I am refusing to allow him to get a myspace account, cause
I'm a good mom like that. Maybe when he turns five...

My mail is not being forwarded yet...I sent the form in like two weeks ago and then I find out that the mail that I should be getting is going to my brothers new house. I'm sure it will work itself out sooner or later.

I have spent the better part of the last two days going through all my photos and sorting them by year then by month and finally they are pretty much done. About eight years ago I had taken all my photos out of the mix matched albums with the intent to sort though them then and put them in matching albums. Well I got all the pictures out but never got around to putting them back in anything.
Now after I have them all sorted out I am realizing that I have even more pictures on the computer and disks and even 12 undeveloped rolls of film. Oh boy, I am really in trouble there. Who knows what I will find on those. They could date back to high school even. Maybe I can do one or two rolls a week and see what I find. Should be fun. Or maybe I can just get a disk for all of them and only print the ones I need to...hmmm...I still need to find the right albums at any rate.
It's Labor Day weekend and I kinda feel like I am abusing it. Like I should not be taken off work. But in reality I don't work on Mondays anyway which means I won't get paid for this wonderful holiday either. Bummer. Either way I have nothing planned at all. How about you?

I finished the back yard too. I am so proud of myself. now Chase can play on the "playground". All thats left is one side of the house and the long driveway on up to the mailbox. Maybe on Friday or over the weekend I can get it finished. Not today though. I'm showered and smell like roses sprinkled with ...gas. Lol!
I'm so glad that grass does not grow very fast down here. Wait, what's that you say? It needs to be mowed every two weeks until October. Your kidding, right? OMG I'm gonna need the riding lawn mower, DADDY!

I am sweaty. I just mowed the front lawn. With a push mower. I don't know if I stink yet because when I put gas in the mower about half-way through the front yard, I didn't put the spout on correctly and gas spilled all over my hand and shoe. Good thing I quit smoking two years ago. Must drink water and put a mole skin on busted blister which I got when I used Jarrett's sneakers to mow the front lawn.
p.s. I borrowed the mower from Dad so I could start with the back yard so Chase could play on the "playground". But now I think I might die if I attempt to go back out there in the blazing heat of south Florida.
p.s.s. Yuck! I just picked up my arms of the desk and there is a puddle of sweat. Maybe I should wipe the desk down now. Naw, maybe a little later. It's Ricky's desk anyway. He should wipe his own desk. And he should take out the garbage. And maybe he can mow the lawn.

OK I think I've rambled enough. Sorry about pouring gas on your shoe Jarrett. And for making them all grassy and dirty. And no, Ricky you don't have to mow the lawn. And yes I will wipe off your desk. I'm feeling a little better now. Maybe I will try to restart the mower. Did I tell you that I mowed the front lawn today...

Finally settled in the new place. The boys have started school and so far they are doing OK. They have complained but I think it may be just nerves. They are happy that the bus picks them up at our mailbox rather than down the street.
School started one day late this year due to hurricane Faye and I think that is a good thing. The first week is always exhausting for the kids. As for the storm, we just had a lot of rain and it was windy enough to bend the flag pole over. Other than missing a day of work (and pay) and school, it was pretty uneventful.
Chase loves the new house. He can ride his three wheel bike through the whole place and not bump into too much. He has a room full of his toys and a t.v. for his game cube. He likes to play Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles on it. He likes the playstation too but the boys have limited him to only playing Jak and Daxter cause he has scratched or broken most of their other games. Yes, we do educational stuff too, but don't tell him that.
I am still hoping I have done the right thing by moving. The driving is taking some getting used to. And I'm hoping the bills will even out. Another thing is getting used to the spiders that have found their way into the house somehow. Huge spiders.
Speaking of bugs I can't get rid of, Rick is now really off limits for all of us. On Monday I needed to take Ricky to get some school clothes and thought that Rick could watch Chase for me while we went to the mall. He was calling every ten minutes. I answered the first couple of times then I stopped cause he was really being a pain in the ass. Wanting me to come pick up Chase stating that I was just using him. Whatever! Anyway, when we went there he was upset that I didn't want to stop and talk to him. Again, he wouldn't get out of the car so I started to pull out of the driveway with him halfway in the car. He got pissed and slammed the door so hard that it broke and now the door does not open and shut correctly. You have to yank on it. So, He's been calling and calling and finally on Thursday I told him that I am not bringing the baby over told him to stop calling me. He had his step-dad call my work asking if I want the door fixed. I told him no. He does not know that we moved and will be quite surprised to find that out, which if I know him like I do, it will be soon cause he will try to send Pappy over to find out about the door or something. I'm not even going to answer his calls anymore. I promise!

So I may be moving shortly. My brother and his family had moved out of his house a little prematurly and now his house is sitting empty for a few months. He let me know that I can live there for about nine months but then I will have to move.
I'm a little nervous about my brother (Kevin) being my landlord but I can't pass up this opportunity. Both the boys want to move to the new house. It's a four bedroom two bath with a garage so they would each have their own room. It's like two and a half times as big as my apartment now. I am ready to do it but as always I am not confident enough in myself to know that this is a good idea. I am really worried that the kids will do something to the house that I can't fix or something like that.
Also, both of the boys will have to start in new schools with out knowing anyone. Ricky is trying to think of a way to go to Naples High but I just don't see that happening. He will have to come to terms with it. Although the house is in Naples it is on the oppisite side of town and neither of the boys would know anyone at the schools besides their cousins.
It's also an hour drive from where I work and where all the classes are for this court thing with Ricky. Which means I will be spending alot on gas.

I can't understand how moving to a huge, beautiful, less than five year old house can cause me so much stress! I wish I knew! This month is going to be rough, I know.

I tried to post from home last night but I had kos (kids over shoulder) and then we got into a conversation about putting music on my gps that is supposed to have a mp3 player on it but we never figured out how to get the music on there. Still havn't figured that out by the way.

Rick called up to my work a few minutes ago and said that he was going to have his step-dad drop chase off at my work because I was being a bitch. He said I was being a bitch on tuesday too. I asked him if he is seeing a pattern there. He thinks I am being a bitch because I am screwing around with someone. He tells me that he is going to call dcf and have the kids taken away from me by the end of the month.
Now trust me I am no more worried that the boys will get taken away than I am worried that a comet will come shooting out of the heavens and land on my house. I do not fall for his stupid antics and silly games that he thinks work with me anymore. What I hate is the fact that he knows the phone number here at work and he gets to call it whenever he wants to. I hate that he has the option to try to piss me off. I hate the fact that he knows that I won't report him for violating the injunction when he is taking care of Chase. I hate that Chase is sitting there listening to him call me and continuing to harass me. I think I will report him. I really need to do something.

In other news, I have been doing laundry like crazy since yesterday. I must have been in laundry mode. I mean I usually do at least one load a day. But between yesterday and today I must have done four loads. I don't even know where all the clothes came from. Oh well at least its done.

Ta ta for now cowboys!

I dislike going this long between posts. Its almost two weeks! Sigh.

Ricky and I went to court last week and they wanted to know if everything was getting done. He took a drug test which he passed (more on that later) and they informed him that he should join the Explorers to finish off his eagle requirements in Boy scouts. Which I think meant that he is kicked out of the troop he has been in for five years. So much for knowing the judge.
Anyway, on the way home he was pointing to some sort of bottle in his pants pocket. I had no idea what he was doing and then he came clean and showed me a lotion bottle that had pee in it. I was furious. I asked him why he would bring that to the court house. And he told me that he needed it so he can test clean. I asked who's it was and he told me it was his brothers. I then asked him when and with who did he smoke with. He just told me that he did it the week before and he was not going to "rat" anyone out. I then calmed down and realised that my heart had broken (again). My son was no longer the innocent boy who didn't keep secrets from him mom. I then explained to him that I only want the best for him and that I love him no matter what but that I had a right to be disappointed with him. That it was my right as a mom to be able to feel disappointed. There was much more said but that was the jest of it.
He has not been out of the house since except when he had an appointment the next day for a family assessment. I was with him when the woman asked him if he had ever used drugs. I was there when he said yes. I was there when she got him to tell her who he was with and when. I was there when he had to explain to her why his test came up clean. I was there when he found out that she is making him do a 12 week group therapy session titled teen survival skills. I was there. I had to sit there and have my heart break over and over again.
This woman also saw that I was due for some one-on-one with a therapist to help with my domestic violence past. I went to my first session today. I feel good about it, I think it will help out alot. My therapist seemed to know exactly what was going on and had some great resources for me. I'm looking forward to going and getting "me" figured out.
I hope Ricky will start to see the benifits of his group too. In all due time I guess.

I wish my camera worked. My Dad came with Jarrett, Chase and I up to see fireworks on Thursday night. Yes, I know Thursday is the 3rd but they do it every year. It's a shopping center and the ice hockey rink (yes, we have Hockey here in Florida. Ever hear of the FL Everblades?) Any way between the two buildings is a lake where they shoot off the fireworks. They also have live music, water ski shows, and people have family BBQ's and company cookouts at this event.
Chase plugged his ears the whole time. Then when the fireworks started he screamed bloody murder. I took him to the car which was only a hop away from where we set up camp and we stayed there till they were over. He would not even let me in the car with him so I stood outside and watched the show. Each time I turned to check on him he inched himself closer to the window until one time I looked and he smiled and gave me a thumbs up. OMG it was such a mom moment. He found his safe place to witness a great show and was finally happy and enjoying himself.
The next morning we met up with Grandpa again and he could not say enough about the fireworks he saw. He still plugged his ears for the floats with the load music though. And I just had a thought, there were no marching bands in the parade this time...hmmm.

I made some simple chocolate cupcakes yesterday. Except that they are so de-lish and yummy. I hid a cherry inside the cupcake and then on top I put whipped cream and two each of blueberries and raspberries. OMG they are so cute and yummy. And of course they are red, white and blue for the Forth!

Today, Jarrett, Chase and I went to the zoo. We had a great time there as usual. I think the boat ride to see the monkeys was the best part, oh and the two foot fish that where is the lake. We did see a baby water moccasin in the wild. Chase wanted to play on the playgrounds again, and that kinda sucked again. But Jarrett was more than happy to help convince him to see some more animals.

For dinner tonight I made Chicken noodle soup. I love it. I use the bow tie noodles and fresh carrots and celery. Then I cook up the chicken and cube it. I toss in some green peas, corn and chopped onion and spice it up with some salt, pepper, parsley and Italian seasoning to finish it off. I mix it all together and add some chicken broth and Wa-La! A hearty chicken noodle soup that my kids won't eat. Of course they nibble at it but they don't like the celery. Too bad!

My stimulus check has been put to good use. I got my car and license all legal. I got insurance, got my License re-newed, payed two tickets, changed my address, and got my car registered. See my birthday is this month so I had to do most of those things anyway. Now I have a shiny new license with a current picture of me on it. Yay! But that means that the check that the government sent to me was used to give money to the government. Wait, what? The rest of it is going to my landlord for rent so I still have somewhere to sleep!

My, my, my, where has the time gone?

Ricky finally went to court and I have to go to parenting classes for six weeks. I'm sure it will do me good but I hate being under a microscope. (Whatever that means).

I woke up so late this morning that I only had an hour to get ready and take the baby to his Dad's house.

I love the 4th of July...Tonight we are going to see fireworks. Tomorrow morning is the parade. Then more fireworks tomorrow night. Then the zoo again on saturday, with my parents this time.

I got one of those new singing cards for my brother in afghanastan. It's his 40th birthday this month. It sings "Your unbievable" by EMF. Love it. Hope he gets it in time.

I know I am forgetting some things that have happened in the last couple of ...Oh, oh guess what? The baby is officially potty trained! Not a baby no more! Yay! Any way... I guess thats it for now...Did I tell you all that when we went to court this last time the judge was none other than Ricky scoutmaster. How embarassingdo you think it was to have one of his scouts tell him that he skips school while mom is at work.

Ok thats it for now.

The boys are home. I was really happy to see them. However, we are not on the same page. I'm not sure we are even reading the same book.
Ricky came back with a bad additude. Jarrett wants to be left alone. Chase just wants to play games with them and they keep kicking him out of their room. They have not picked up anything that they use. They are leaving plates and cups and wrappers everywhere. The clothes are not making it to the baskets and the shoes are not making it to the bin. They get mad when I ask them for a little more detail about the trip and Ricky keeps correcting Jarrett and won't let him tell me anything. I think my heart is breaking because of it all. I can't seem to get a grasp on it.

I want a re-do. I mean I deserve one I think. I wanted them to come home ready to be a family again. But it's not happening that way.

In other news, my sister-in-law Becca came down with the two boys B.J. and Hunter. They live in Kentucky now and my brother Brad is in Afghanastan (He's in the Army). We all got together yesterday at my brother Kevin's house for a Bar-B-Q. They kids (all 10 of them) had a great time playing and socializing. Then this morning I had Becca and the kids and my Dad meet me at Chase's favorite Park. Chase wanted to play with Grandpa more that the other kids this time. Was kinda cute. Then I had to work so Becca took my three with her and I will meet up with them after work for dinner. She is here till tomorrow afternoon. I need to do some research for something to do tomorrow...

I got postcards!

I also talked to both the boys on Sunday night about 10 pm. I was so happy to hear from them. They are having a good time and were looking forward to going to D.C. on Monday.
Jarrett wrote on his postcard, "Hey, remember me? I used to live there. Well, I remember you!" Then he went on to tell me about Old Rag Mountain that they climbed. Ricky talked about Old Rag too and he admitted that he was "kinda homesick, but who isn't!" I really enjoyed hearing from them.

Of course, with them being gone I have spent a lot of time thinking about some changes that could be made in our family. Things could be done better to make things easier on me and less stressful for the boys. I hate that I want them to be the best ever. I know they will never live up to all my expectations. I need to try to accept them for who they are and what they can do. But I don't know how to do that yet. My emotions get in the way sometimes. Like with scouts. I am not happy unless they are both at the meetings every week. I do ask them if they want to go to events or not. They always say yes but then they give me a hard time when it's time to go because its the weekend and they want to hang out with their buddies or go to the movies. Again and again I have to explain to them that they made an commitment to something and they need to follow through. Like with this football camp, I could not get him to go the last two days before he left for summer camp. He made it seem like I was the worst person for trying to make him go. He tried to tell me that his body was not ready for intense training yet. He needs to work up to it. He needs to start out slower and then maybe he could do the two hour death camp training. Yet, I was still trying to guilt him into going. Telling him that he wanted this, not me. Saying that sure you are going to hurt for the first week but after that your muscles will get used to it and it will get easier. Pushing him to argue with me about not going. Just making him feel like crap for not going, and not really supporting him like a parent should. I just want him to make an effort and try something new. Maybe I am doing this all wrong, but I am trying. I have not given up yet.

Ok, I went to court yesterday to explain to the judge why my son was not in school for 31 days this past school year. We were all (there were about 100 people there) told to be at the courthouse at 3pm. They do drug tests on the kids and that took about an hour. Finally at 4pm they moved us into the courtroom and there we sat for another 1/2 hour before the judge came out.
They start with the people who have lawyers. There were maybe five or six of those. Then it goes alphabetically so I was able to see a couple of the cases before I went up there. I was shocked to find out that a couple of the kids had a test come back "dirty". One kid tried to tell the judge that he hadn't smoked since april. But the Detective explained that if he last smoked in May that he would have been clean. The kid would not fess up and he has to come back again.
When it was my turn, the judge realised that my son was not with me and he asked where he was. I told him he was in Virginia at a Boy Scout summer camp. He asked if it was a local troop. I said yes and he asked who the Scoutmaster was. I told him his name and he looked at me and said "you realise that he is a magistrate of this court." And I said "yes, I know that very well". Turns out that this judge knows the scoutmaster. Very well. And he informed me that he will check into it. Anyway, they agreed that they need to do some background search on my son and to come back in two weeks.
For some reason I don't think I am off the hook yet...

OMGosh, The boys have left and I am at a loss for what to do.

Chase and I went to the local zoo on Saturday.

Note to self: ask the zoo people to take out the play grounds.

I let Chase play for what I thought would only be a few minutes. But in reality turned into an hour and a half. There are three areas in the zoo where a child like Chase can forget that there is nature and wild animals just beyond his reach. And Chase had to try them all out.

I was so board watching him play on the playground equipment that I started naming the other kids who came to play. I seen a Jordan, an Emily, a Johnathan, a Shiloh, and a little red haired kid I named Tommy.

Tommy was as pale as egg whites and had large brown freckles all over the place. The cutest darn kid I've seen in quite some time. Chase was drawn to him. He followed Tommy around every turn and up every stair and down every slide. Then Tommy left with his Mommy and Daddy and so did Chase. I was with them too but I don't think Chase knew it. He was too busy playing with Tommy.

Anyway we finally lost the Tommy family and made our way to the line for the Monkey boat ride. That was so fun watching Chase find the monkeys on the little islands. He loved it. And I loved that he loved it.

Still looking.

For a job.

Have had no luck.

Not yet.

Still looking.

The boys are an inch away from leaving the nest for Virginia. They had a pack-your-bag class at the troop meeting and I think they are both prepared enough for the trip. They know what they need to bring and they know what they need to do. They know.
I know they will be safe and I know that if they let themselves, they can have a great time.
I wish this was something we could all do together. Like last year. But it is not happening this time. This time I will stay with Chase and we will do lots of great things together. I already have plans to take him to the zoo. And of course there's always the beach and the park. We can do those things without "the boys".
Sure wish we could have all gone together though. But you know what they say...wish in one hand and crap in the other, which one weighs more? (or something like that).

Ricky started football practice yesterday. It's actually strength and speed training. He went again this morning but when I picked him up he was even less excited then yesterday. I really don't know if I will be able to talk him into going tomorrow. He was really upset that he is not a great runner. I tried to tell him that I was the worst runner on my cross country team but he either didn't believe me or didn't care to listen. It will be hard to get him to go tomorrow I know. But I won't let him not go. I will support him I will.

CHOP!

I really thought that it was just my son and his buddies that said "CHOP". I was so wrong.
Yesterday I volunteered to accompany my son's 8th grade class to the beach. We are walking down the halls to his homeroom and like thirty kids are high fiving him and calling out his name. Which is funny cause he always says he has no friends. Anyway, we finally make it to the beach and he eventually ditches me and hangs out with his buddies. I find a nice little corner out of the way and relax for a couple of hours.
Around lunchtime, I seek out a shady spot by a lake on the other side of the parking lot and eat lunch and watch the ducks. (For those familiar with the area - it was Laudermilk Park - where my family + Rachel, once had a photo shoot when we were about 13)
I stopped by the consession stand to buy a soda and I hear the girls behind me talking. Then I hear it. CHOP! A bunch of times. I turn to look at them and they were not even from Ricky's school. They had on t-shirts from the other school that was on a field trip at the same time.
About 1pm I caught up with Ricky and his buddies all talking to some of the teachers. We left shortly after that. It was a good time for all the kids.

I have not felt like cooking all week.

My boss did not pay me for the memorial day holiday. He paid everyone else so I called him about it and he said that because I am part time, I don't get it. He also added that I normally don't work on Mondays anyway.
Thing is though, he never informed me prior to this that I would not be getting holiday pay. So I looked on the calender and I see that I also won't be getting paid for the forth of July but I should get Thanksgiving and Christmas beacuse they are both on Thursdays. But wait there is still the idea that I am only part time. Shucks. (He didn't even use the "company has no money" excuse this time. Guess he didn't want to have to apologize this time.

Had a nice Memorial weekend. I think the boys are just realising that school will be out this Thursday. They are being nice to each other lately. Or it could be that I posted two new rules on the fridge. No hitting and No cussing. 30 minute timeout. I have had to put them in timeout only twice each in the last week or so. And not at all in the last couple of days. Yay.

Remember when I told you about "That's a neck" and how my son Ricky used to say it a lot. Well now the word is "Chop" and he finishes that off with a chop to the back of your neck. His friends all do it and this morning my three year old Chase did it too.
I asked Chase if he needed to change his diaper. He said "No". So I came back with "But you have been wearing it all night." He says "Chop". I look down at him and he realises that he was on to something and he says it again "Chop!" And I'm like *"Awe - H E double hockey sticks - No" and as soon as Ricky got out of the shower I told him about it and he goes and gives Chase a high five and knuckles. As if!

Ok I am the worst person to have in the car when you get pulled over. I imediatly tell the officer everything I was doing wrong so he can write the tickets up faster. Seriously!
I was rushed out the door this morning so I just grabbed the keys and Chase. I drop the boys off at school, literally one block away from the house and was on my way back home when the cop makes a u-turn and flips on his lights. I realize that I don't have my seatbelt on, so I know I am doomed.
I pull over (on my own street) and roll down the window. I smile really big and say "I'm not wearing my seatbelt." To which the cop says " No and you were speeding in a school zone." I say "Really" He says "Yeah, 30 in a 25!"
So after I confess that I don't have anything with me like my license or my registration and that I don't actually live where my license says I do, he finally comes back to the car and gives me a ticket for not wearing my seatbelt. I swear the next time I get pulled over I will try to keep my mouth shut.

That stupid GM at work is an A-Hole. He actually came back from a job today with a new red truck. Like we would not have known that he was using company time to go and pick this personal equipment up. Not only that but he had to go to the bank to get the cash to pay for it and he tells me this like its no big deal. He gets 50% of the entire payroll for the entire company and he uses company time to do personal things too. Not only that but during his lunch he had his helper follow him home so he can drop off his harley and then they stopped at subway and ate here in the office for 1/2 hour. WTF! I really don't know whats worse, him bragging about the stupid truck of him using company time to buy it.



*I did not really say awe hell no to my three year old are you kidding me. That was just for story sake. Really!

The hooking thing is not working out. I keep loosing track of the number of tricks and my pimp is taking all my money. I have to find something else to do. Maybe the library is hiring?

Rick is out of jail and up to his old tricks again. I refuse to let him come by the house and he is still throwing idle threats my way. He called me today to apologize for the way he acted on Tuesday night. He says he got a job but of couse its a holiday weekend and he don't start till Tuesday now. Gee, have I heard that before?

I have talked to Doug quite a few times now since he found me on myspace. He sounds exactly the same as he did way back yonder. He told me that I broke up with him on Valentines day and never gave him an answer as to why. I really have no recolection of that at all. And since it was about 17 years ago I don't think I will have an answer for him. I think he is over it though. lol. It's been really nice talking to him and I hope to continue our friendship.

School is almost out and the boys will be going away for summer camp two weeks. Ricky wants to sign up for high school football and they start practice next week. He has to get a physical before then though. This weekend we are having a hot dog sale at a hardware store to raise more money for summer camp. A last ditch effort. Should be a good time since its a holiday weekend.

Wish us luck!

I have been plugging along.

Sunday was Jarrett's 13th Birthday. Yay! He wanted to take his friend Tyler and Ricky to the water park. So after deciding to forgo my wood badge reunion we headed for the water. Chase and I went to the kiddie part of the park for most of the day and we met up with the boys when it was time to eat. We had a great time and I was the only one to get a sunburn. I made sure to spray down all the boys and they were supposed to do my back...they must have been in a hurry cause I am toasted.
Later on we went back to our house for pizza, cake and ice cream. Jarrett was pretty happy about everything.

I have to go to court with Ricky about him missing school. And guess who is home from school today...Yep both the boys woke up this morning with belly-aches. What am I to do?

Rick has been writing the boys letters from jail. Ricky threw out the first ones without even opening them. Jarrett never even saw them. Their Nana asked if they wanted to go see him and they both said no.

I think I am going to take my co-workers advise finally and start hooking. I am about to be evicted and again find myself with no where to go. So I need some serious money quick!

I need a new job!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My boss came in to my office and informed me that he had some bad news. He said he is going to have to cut my hours again cause we are so slow. So he tells me that he wants me to come in from 11:30 to 4pm on Tuesdays and Thursdays...(I hear crickets) and he says thats it. I ask when do I start doing that and he says well today is Thursday so I'll see you on Tuesday.

Thank you!

No really I mean this is so much better than letting me go. It has not hit me yet but I'm sure later I will be a blubbering mess. I mean, rent is due in one week and I was hoping to take my vacation pay to pay it. But now he says that that may not be available for me.

FUCK!

What am I to do now...I know cussing won't help me. So I need to not loose my head about this!!!

I'll be fine, really, I always come through!

Happy Birthday!

It is both my oldest brother's 41st birthday, and Rachel's birthday today.

Yea!

I'll just let you know right now that I did not get you anything this year, sorry. But I am making a cake tonight and I'm sure the boys would totally understand why we are singing Happy Birthday to people who are not in the room with us. I'm also sure that they won't mind blowing out your candles!

To another year...

In other news....this was the first week without the ex around and I think it went pretty well. The boys are just starting to test me again, trying to see how much they can get away with. But that's ok, I will deal with it.

Chase, Jarrett, Ricky, his friend Timmy, and I went to the beach yesterday. It was dangerous trying to get a parking spot. I finally found one but I don't have a sticker on my car so while the boys got out I was gong to find another spot, the parking police rushed over and was going to write me a ticket. Needless to say I had to move the car and park across the street.

Timmy, Chase and I dug a huge hole in the sand. Then Ricky and Jarrett got buried and Chase threw sand at thier faces. Fun times!

I have a Myspace so I can keep track of my two teenage boys. Well low-and-behold I get a message on there the other day that is from a very dear friend who I have not talked to is a very long time. Doug, is married now and has a cute baby girl and lives in Indiana. I have known him since high school. It has been fun playing catch-up, and his wife is a sweet heart too. She even gave me permision to talk to him!

I was shocked to get a message from somebody so I quickly cleaned up my Myspace page and added some new applications. (Kinda like sweeping through the house when some one drops by.) I think it looks kinda cute now. And most importantly I put my favorite song of all time on there. Go check it out Here.

I have been keeping busy with work and the kids. Had a little problem with some of them going to school but I think we straightened that out. I have also been busy with the Boy Scout Troop Website. You can see that here. I did most of the ground work and Ricky did most of the pictures and figured out how to let people download the monthy newsletter (that I did from scratch) and he shortened the address from something . com at fl backsplash really long name here to troop325.tk. I am really proud of myself. I learned HTML!

I'm trying to adjust. But I am really tired today. This week I have been going to work at 8:30am which means I have to get up at 6am and leave the house by 7:30. Chase is not an early bird by any means and he won't leave the house unless I say he is going to the store (something that Rick did all the time). We get to Mom and Dads around 8 and he cries cause he wants to go home with me. Then I get home between 5:30 and six and cook dinner, do the laundry, and sweep, and pick up toys, and, and, and,... Most nights I don't get to sleep till after 11. I'm tired and it's only been three days. Ugh!
His mother came over last night and told me that if I didn't try to help Rick that he was going to "tell all". Whatever that means...and thats what I told her, is that I have heard it a thousand times like its on a recorder. She acts nice but I know Rick is feeding her garbage. She sticks up for him all the time and she knows how he treats me. Hell, he treats her bad too. She expects me to just brush it off and save her son. She even told me that she told him to move away from me so he won't get into trouble. She asked me to drop the restraining order so he won't go to prison. I told her that my plan was not to get him in trouble but he put himself there. He should have took the high road and kept his mouth shut if he didn't have something nice to say. He was always so negative about everything, except being with me. That was "the" only thing that mattered to him.
In other news, my sister-in-law Rita told me to file for unemployment cause I have only been working part time. So I did and they sent me all the paperwork. I called in my first two weeks on the 8th and then I called today to see where my check is. Well, I have been misled. See they will only pay you if you are actually unemployed. If you make over what they were going to pay you then you don't get anything. That sucks and I told the guy on the phone that it is not fair. He said he understood my problem, that due to the economy I had been reduced from full time to part time but he said that there was nothing that he could do to help me. Shit!

How can a weight be lifted off your shoulders and at the same time a huge cloud looms overhead?

I'll tell you how.

Rick goes to jail = weight lifted.

Rick goes to jail = huge mfing cloud.

See, Rick used to watch the baby while I was at work and did scout stuff. Now Rick is in jail and I don't have a real plan for a backup babysitter.

I am glad I don't have to hear his negative attitude for a long while. He brought this on himself. I am thankful that my kids are smarter than I am. Don't worry it was really an uneventful thing that happened. No hitting or slamming doors.
Simply this...I was cooking dinner and the boys were just home from a weekend camping trip. They were on the computer along with Jarrett's friend Tyler. I could hear some profanity from whatever they were watching and I asked Ricky to either turn it off or use the headphones cause I didn't want the baby to hear it. A few seconds later, Rick comes out of a bedroom and starts yelling at Ricky, telling him he has 2 seconds to turn it off or he will pull the plug. Ricky tells him to back off and then Rick pulls the plug and goes back to whatever he was doing.
Next, I hear Rick asking me who Ricky is on the phone with outside. I tell him we don't have a phone and I peak outside knowing full well who he is talking to. Rick begs me to go out there and stop him. Then he kind of runs around the house trying to figure out what to do and where to go. Finally I tell him that he needs to calm down and figure out what to tell the cops when they get here. He takes off out the door and attempts to hide in the ditch. But he must have seen the police car by then and came out to talk to them. They run his name and find out that there is a no contact order. They take a statement from me and took him to jail.
Ricky says he's happy about what he did. And later that night he came and sat by me and asked me how I felt. I said fine and he said "No, what I mean is, don't you feel more relaxed now that Dads not here."
"Yes!" I do feel so much at ease, even though there will be hard times and things will be more difficult, I still feel like this should have been done a long time ago. I mean he has only been watching Chase since about January. I seems sooo much longer than that. A lifetime.
I can't seem to think a solid thought, sorry. I know I am rambling...